Scabs and Scars

IMG_5470At eight years old I overheard a woman say an Arabian prince could only choose a woman with no scars to be his princess. I was devastated. I had scars from mosquito bites, chicken pox, bike accidents, and scraping my feet in Gramma’s big cement pool. I also had a belly button, and wondered if those princes were smart enough to realize that everyone had at least one scar. Did the holes from getting our ears pierced count?

I’m an almost albino redhead. I’ve had eight suspicious moles removed. The first one was near my right breast. I was 20, and the plastic surgeon named, I kid you not, Dr. Scarzella, said he didn’t want to do the surgery because the scar might hinder intimacy with my partner. I was not even close to being sexually active, but I somehow had enough sense of self to say, “well, I don’t think I’m going to be intimate with any guy who couldn’t handle a scar on my boob.” He laughed and patted my shoulder. I had a moment of feminist pride, but I was thinking of that prince. I was definitely out of the running now.

I remembered a steamy movie scene where two lovers explored each other’s bodies, naked and unashamed. They told the stories of their scars, which were then gently touched and tenderly kissed. It was like their pain was revealed and redeemed.

Pre-cancerous mole removal is not the stuff of love scenes.

My old scars have faded. They’re like the inside of conch shells, smooth and pink with a bit of shine. No pigment, freckles or soft down. Just the plain fact that pain happened right there. My other scars are angry, raised and dark, straight lines on curves. They demand attention, questions.

At an annual skin check my dermatologist said, “You don’t scar well. They’re too big and raised. Your body makes too much scar tissue.”

I thought about that for a long time. I am also the girl who went to counseling for nine years. It seems I can’t forget my pain.

I studied the metaphor my body offered to me. I learned that when our skin is opened our bodies send platelets and fibrin to knit a covering for our wounds, called a scab. Under that custom-made tent new skin will form, starting at the edges, then the middle, until the whole area is made new. The scab will slough off when it’s no longer needed. If the cut is deeper, our bodies will send more material to fill in the gaps. It will send lots of collagen and proteins to build a strong, protective scar.

Scabs and scars are signs of healing.

When we’re rejected and forgotten it feels raw, like those open places when our skin bleeds. We sometimes press our hands over our hearts when we talk about it, feeling the pain. Our friends and counselors sit, listen,pray for us, and hold us tight.  They cover over that hole like a medic’s tent. They are scabs. Protecting us while God rebuilds us inside.

Our scars are our stories. I think God wants to use them to show off. Scars are like stones of remembrance, saying God was here and He helped me. We suffered deeply. He sent us platelets and fibrin, prayer and friends. He fixed us up. We healed. I was down but not out. Blind but now I see.

During Lent people focus on how human Jesus was. He was tempted. He was misunderstood, betrayed, and forsaken. He was beat up, tortured, and killed. Jesus had a soft body and soft heart in a jagged world, too. His scabs and scars became the story of our salvation.

I have more scars than I can count now. That Middle Eastern prince I heard about as a girl would be disgusted.

But there’s another prince. He’s into scars. He’s also from the middle east. One of his nicknames is Prince of Peace. When I showed him my big collection of scars he looked at me so tenderly, and listened to my stories. Then he showed me his, and whispered a love story into my heart. He chose me. He healed me. And I have great stories to tell.

He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross
so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right.
By his wounds you are healed. – 1 Peter 2:24

More thoughts about Scabs and Scars:

  1. Do you have any scabs on your body today? Any raw or tender places? Knicks on your fingers where the salt and lemon burn? Deep cuts from a push or fall? Gently, very gently, touch those open places. Invite the Lord to heal your body. Whisper, “Lord, I’m broken. Please heal me. Knit me together.” Marvel at how your body is working to protect you.

  2. A scab means pain happened recently. A scar means pain happened a long time ago. Close your eyes and think about your scars. Gently touch them, one at time, remembering the pain, and what you learned from it. Maybe you can laugh about it. Thank God that you survived it. Thank your body for healing. Consider doing this with your heart, too. Remember your heartache and remember your healing. Think about telling your story of victory and survival to a friend this week.

  3. I like the boundaries of scabs. Our whole body doesn’t shut down and get hardened. Just the area where we were injured. That place needs extra care. When our hearts are broken we’re allowed to be crusty, hard, even cynical, for a time. You don’t want anyone else sticking fingers or pointy objects in there. You might pick at it, and it bleeds again, and then it heals some more, taking longer. It’s okay. You’re just trying to figure this out. At some point it will be time to heal. How are you doing with heartache? Is it time to let the scar form?

“But for you who fear my name,
the Sun of Righteousness will rise
with healing in his wings.
And you will go free,
leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture.” – Malachi 4:2

Written by Aimee Fritz

Aimee Fritz

Aimee Fritz is a storyteller. She finally believes in an unseen God, hopes to someday feel qualified to parent her three kids, and is now allergic to every food she used to enjoy. Long ago as a consultant, she brought encouragement and tools to companies, churches, and nonprofits desperate for change. Now the organization she desires to serve most is her family. Aimee launched Family Compassion Focus (familycompassionfocus.com) in 2014 to create and collect resources to equip all families, including her own, to become lovable and loving World Changers. She and her daughter just returned from Haiti where they completed their craziest fundraiser yet – doing the Chicken Dance in a Chicken Suit at the Haiti Partners Children’s Academy.

About Aimee Fritz

Aimee Fritz is a storyteller. She finally believes in an unseen God, hopes to someday feel qualified to parent her three kids, and is now allergic to every food she used to enjoy. Long ago as a consultant, she brought encouragement and tools to companies, churches, and nonprofits desperate for change. Now the organization she desires to serve most is her family. Aimee launched Family Compassion Focus (familycompassionfocus.com) in 2014 to create and collect resources to equip all families, including her own, to become lovable and loving World Changers. She and her daughter just returned from Haiti where they completed their craziest fundraiser yet – doing the Chicken Dance in a Chicken Suit at the Haiti Partners Children’s Academy.

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